When The Sacred Foundation Crumbles
Just a toddler
My father turned away
While my mother hurt me
Then they both looked at me
Expecting love
Terror seized me
Who were they
Treating me well one minute
Hurting me the next
Betrayal
Pain
Isolation
Fear
Were my constant companions
I felt my parents
Felt their moods shift
I withdrew deep inside
To protect myself
From
My father’s lack of care
My mother’s violent mood swings
No one to turn to
Nowhere safe to land
I thought I was going to die
Then as a teenager
Living in a safe friend’s house
I was rejected
Thrown out
For simply being myself
Not fearing to show sadness
I trusted them
And they too abandoned me
Left me
A high school student
With nowhere to go
Shocked
I had no foundation to fall back on
I was alone
Why? Why didn’t they love me?
I wondered
I pulled myself up
Continued on
Through it all
I survived
Somehow I survived
Until adulthood
When I could reach out
Learn to trust
Who was good for me
Learn to build
Solid relationships
Don’t let your past
Dictate your future
You are the architect
Of your life
Use your past
To help you make better decisions
About what relationships
To form now
About how to live fully
And freely
Your future is yours to create
Love yourself enough
To create a rich dynamic life
You are not your past
Embrace the present
Build a solid future
Based on self love and self care
You are worth it
You deserve a healthily connected life
You deserve all the good life has to offer
Love yourself and
Let others love you
Om Ah Hung
Self Alchemy Seeker
